Fleeting/Random/Thoughts

[CelticAngel82]

I had a good hair day today. Not even joking.

Went and saw my sister in hospital. Mum thinks she's going to lose her other foot, it's going the same way as the first. :S

And she's always very tired, even on non-dialysis days.

sorry to hear about your sister, dude. /hugs to you and your family.

[CelticAngel82]

hate hate hate anxiety.

[Katamara]

Tonight I am glad for my getting healthy streak and poor paying job. I went looking for comfort food in the variety of chocolate or icecream and I had neither. I was tempted to make waffles but I didn't have a stick of butter.

My very relaxed dress code and inability to work up the energy to change this means I will not be consuming such things in the near future either.

[lordkabab]

starting to think i'm not welcome at my friends dnd games. said they'd invite me next time the played, then didn't. one of them didn't even know and asked if i was coming.

that was awkward.

[CelticAngel82]

starting to think i'm not welcome at my friends dnd games. said they'd invite me next time the played, then didn't. one of them didn't even know and asked if i was coming.

that was awkward.

i know some guys in perth who play dnd and other tabletop games. lulz if it's the same people

[lordkabab]

I doubt it, they only just started playing.

[CelticAngel82]

ahhhhhhh this family has been playing for yeeeeeeeeeeeeeears

[CelticAngel82]

so this is what happens when you forget to take your anti depressant for a day.

[CelticAngel82]

its 2am, there appears to be people online... WHY IS NO ONE POSTING?!

[CelticAngel82]

my mind is a wreck right now, emotionally.. i physically feel like trash.. i just wish i could sleep. so many thoughts going through my head that are just spiralling out of control.. and i have this stupid appointment in the morning.. if i could play some black metal i could probably fall asleep, it's calming, relaxing.. but, even my little ipod speakerdock will wake my housemate as the walls are so thin.. i can hear him snoring ffs.. no chance of me using my earphones either, i'll end up not hearing my alarm in the morning...
ugh i want some cake... a delicious coles chocolate mudcake.. i could smash an entire cake and a litre of milk right now... I might go cook some more pancakes.. hmm.. i fear i'm going to lose my **** tomorrow if i get to my appointment and they **** me around again and cancel on me.. got dicked around with their appointments already yesterday morning.. no wonder the majority of people who get help through qld health's mental health system end up topping themselves. they only make matters worse it seems. but i have to go if i want an official diagnosis of aspergers because my psychologist cant do it. it has to be a psychiatrist. The acute care team called me the other day and asked a bunch of questions, and apparently i'm suicidal, so god knows what they're going to declare me as when they actually talk to me. i miss my cat, so so badly. i keep expecting to find her curled up asleep in one of her spots. i keep seeing it in my head, over and over, the needle going in, her looking at me one last time, and going to sleep. i wish i could have stopped it, i really do. I wish we just remained oblivious to her cancer, then she'd still be here. and i could cuddle her. and she'd make everything better.


edit - how's THAT for a fleeting random thought.
/thread.

[FryzieDelta]

Hey, you're on my internet!

[Katamara]

starting to think i'm not welcome at my friends dnd games. said they'd invite me next time the played, then didn't. one of them didn't even know and asked if i was coming.

that was awkward.

My DnD group is breaking up :'( Mind you, my ex is the GM so I am not so sad about it. It looks like once the house is sold we really aren't going to have anything to do with each other.

I am thinking of trying my hand at running my own campaign He was a terrible GM anyway!

I will need a 4th though...

[Artful-dodgeR]

What do you do for coin kata? Just intrigued from the three good things thread...


And damn I'm tired today, coffee after this meeting... that goes for two hours? **** sake.

[Disco LT]

I thought CA double posting was bad enough.. but a triple post? You can edit your post you know...

[lordkabab]

Editing doesn't always work IMO. Sometimes things are better off separate.